“Thanks to all kind souls for reading my journey through lands both familiar and foreign to us all. May your day be as pleasant as you have just made mine.”
When I announced to my first grade teacher, “I know what I want to do when I grow up – I want to make books!” – I had no idea what lay ahead. Until you “make it” in the eyes of many, you just have a nice little hobby. If that is so, I venture to say my hobby is my life. Writing from as far back as I can remember, I recall my bedroom as a teenager, a small room used as an office in a former school house converted to a home, with the walls covered in my poetry. Mom never gave me heck for that but I think she liked it, I did it artfully and with tidy penmanship. (Now we pay at stores to get writing for our walls!)
My first four novels form part of my writing apprenticeship learning grounds. All those slice-of-life fiction works were written while holding full time and part time paying jobs which I also wrote about when in those positions … With much work published in various venues, some paying gigs included, and awards for fiction, non-fiction and poetry, I now live to write and that is all. Writing here while working on books 5, 6 and 7 which will be published even if I have to give them away online as soon as I am able to finish them, if I ever am. Writing as much as I can… as often as I can… enjoy your visit to my pages here.
Writing is breathing and breathing is writing…
Still more? Here you go:
Every experience I have ever had not only contributes to my writing in this world but also to the person I am and the better person I strive to become, better today than yesterday, better tomorrow than today…
Blogging here is all I really have time or energy for at the moment and some days now, thanks to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, even that is in question. Told by a writing instructor that we need to write a million words, I believe it was from this quote:
“Start early and work hard. A writer’s apprenticeship usually involves writing a million words (which are then discarded) before he’s almost ready to begin. That takes a while.” ~David Eddings
Well, I’ve done my million… I think, lol… here’s the short version:
1. Slice of life fiction: was dark but good experience to write, wrote in summer 1997 Coming of age: 110 page novella written in a long weekend, didn’t win contest which included publishing and 100 copies of your book, Received Certificate of Merit.
2. Romance: was written off and on for a year to just try the genre because I wanted to leave day jobs and just make a steady living writing. A friend who writes romance says it is so good, I should submit it. But I can’t reconcile this with myself. I am not knocking romance, I just know I can do better. It was tough writing, like pulling teeth for me. But I wanted to prove I could do it. I did that. Now I want more from myself.
3. Creative non-fiction: The one I am most proud of but still don’t consider any of my books more than campfire starter. The more great writing, I read, the more humble I become. Perhaps one day I shall rewrite or use parts of this work in another story of challenges, love, betrayal, redemption and reconnecting self, finding place in the world.
4. Slice of Life fiction a healing story through the ages and generations in one family despite betrayals, loss and damages done most of which were inadvertent, just because humans cannot know what they do not yet know.
First Place 2001: Non-fiction (creative non-fiction) :http://www.siwc.ca/
Honourable Mention: Fiction 2000 http://www.siwc.ca/
First Place 2003: Christmas theme story local newspaper contest (Vancouver BC)
Writer’s Union of Canada: Shortlisted 2002 (for short short)
Third Place 1998: Copper Beech short fiction contest
Canada wide Essay Contest: First Place
Honorable Mention for short fiction work 1997 (1500 words): Tickled by Thunder Magazine
OTHER WORK EXPERIENCE (DAY JOBS)
OFFICE ASSISTANT – Part time position of 20 years working for family business while working part time or full time as:
VOLUNTEER COORDINATOR - Part time 2 months Civic government
VICTIM NOTIFIER - Full time 3+ years Ministry of Attorney General,
INFORMATION OFFICER – Full time Childcare Program 1 year Ministry of Social Services
BUSINESS OWNER/MANAGER – Computer Document Services 3 years
FAMILY DAYCARE OWNER/OPERATOR – 5 years
PRIOR: Retail Fashion Sales; Cashier; Server; Factory line worker
- Anxiety Management
- PTSD Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (identifying, coping/living with)
- Boundaries and Healthy Communication
- Emotional Eating (healing: why we do it, what do to/managing it)
- Dynamics of Healthy Relationships
- Government Job Seekers Skills Program
- Interior Design Consultant Diploma
- Writing For Children Course
- Creative Writing Diploma
- Cross Cultural Awareness
- Supervision in Canada Course
- Victim’s Services Certificate, Attorney General
- Victim’s Assistance Volunteer Trainer’s Certificate, Attorney General
- Criminal Justice System Overview, Crown Counsel
- Legal Aid Remedies : Violence Against Women Workshop
- Sexual Harassment In the Workplace, Attorney General
- Information & Referral Course
- Shifting Gears Men’s Treatment Program Overview
- Lay Counsellor Training, Victim’s Assistance & Sexual Assault Centre
- Stopping the Violence Conference(s)
- Freedom of Information & Privacy Advisor’s Workshop
- Computer/Word Processing Certificates
- Conflict Resolution & Mediation, Levels I-IV
- Ritual Abuse: Caregiver Awareness Workshop
- College: Volunteer Management Credits
- University English Literature Credits
- Advanced Study Techniques, A+ College Course
- University Psychology Courses
- Superhost & Encore Certificates
- College: Business Communications
- Grade 12 Honours Graduate
VOLUNTEER EXPERIENCECommunity Coordinated Justice Committee 3 yrs As Corrections Branch representative introduced policy procedures, liaised with Senior Crown Counsel(s), Police Staff Sgt(s), Victim Services Managers, Transition House Coordinators, non-profit/ community agencies to develop streamlined process for serving victims of violence and treating sentenced offenders. Board of Directors – Women’s Rape and Sexual Assault Centre 1 yr Collectively participated in educational workshops, collective administrative decisions from staff/programming to volunteer recruiting/ training, engaged speakers/trainers to deliver workshops for staff & volunteer core. Neighbourhood Blockwatch Program Leader 2 yrs Organized annual meetings, attended RCMP training, distributed newsletters fan-outs to members of the program. Board of Directors – Communities Against Substance Abuse Society 2 yrs Participated in planning, evaluation of processes. Raised awareness, contributed to media including Healthiest Babies Possible, & in events from fundraising to Dry Grad. Public Relations Committee, Information & Volunteer Centre 2 yrs Weekly volunteer recruitment column, newspaper press releases and articles including biographies of volunteers, writing/editing and graphic mock-ups of bi-monthly newsletter and media for volunteer recognition events. Office Assistant – Publishing 1 yr Edited copy for Richmond publisher/marketing firm from gift to health books, business/career guides. Flyers, advertising, direct mail marketing campaigns. Animal Rescue – 1 year Placed rescued dogs in safe homes by advertising, screening calls and owners and finding foster care while awaiting permanent homes.
Creative writing, working out, cooking healthy, Interior Design, literary fiction and creative non-fiction, dancing, visual and performing arts, gardening, water-colour & acrylic painting, camping and hiking.
Impeccable are both personal and professional references yet all completely useless because she is not who she once was.
She can no longer do what she once did.
She feels it is a good day now when her shoes match.
This is the realm of living with PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder)
When shell-shocked, you do not lose your intelligence. Merely your coping skills, your ability to focus and comprehend are all impaired as though you are drunk. But you are not. No not at all. You battle the fog daily and wonder if it will ever get any better. You wonder if this is as good as it gets.
When you realize that this may be so, you grieve another loss. The loss of yourself as you knew you. You come to terms with where you are and realize, if this is as good as it gets, so be it.
Writing is breathing… breathing is writing…
(c) March 2011 : “There is no player so bold as the one who chooses not to engage in the game.” ~ Aurora Morealist